Diners, NaNoWriMo

So, I’m procrastinating when really I should be doing work. But WHATEVS.

I’ve always been sort of drawn to diners. There’s something about a late night at a 24-hour American diner that just speaks to my being. Maybe it’s because I watched too much “Pulp Fiction” in high school. Maybe it’s the whole Edward Hopper “Nighthawk” deal about lonesomeness and the disconnect between people. I dunno. Whatever it is, I like diners.

I like burgers, I like fries, I like sandwiches, I like milkshakes, I like the booth, I like the slightly dank, slightly decrepit atmosphere, I like the one bulb that is always out, I like the friendly old female no-bullshit waiter, I like the neon red “OPEN” sign, I like the art deco style.

On a separate note, I’ve also decided participate in the National Novel Writing Month. Basically, the point is to put down 50,000 words of a novel between November 1st and November 31st. I think one of my biggest problems with writing is that I overthink what I’m doing and then constantly go back to add in stuff or take out stuff, thereby fucking up the narrative. I think I’m going to simply try to just blast through the story first and THEN go back to change stuff. Maybe I’ll finally be able to actually finish something.

And… yeah. That’s about it. I haven’t written anything for a long time because I’ve been so busy with school and stuff like that. I’d originally planned to have a bit more of a regular schedule… but, I doubt that’s going to really happen during the school year or anything like that, so I guess the plan-du-jour (I don’t think that’s an actual phrase) is simply intermittent updates… haha…

I’ve been bad at updating… hahaha…

So… yeah, I haven’t written much in a long time… sorry… But then again, half the things I say are complete shit anyway, so there’s really not much reason for the average person to read most of these posts.

Anyway, I’m going to get a haircut and dye job again. I’m not really sure about how it’ll turn out, but I’m not too worried about it. I’ve gotten a haircut from this friend of mine and she did a pretty good job last time, so I’m not too worried about this time.

I’ve also started going to the gym again. It’s been a bit of a challenge to force myself to go, but overall I don’t mind it that much. I might actually go in about an hour or so since I haven’t been there in maybe 2 days or so.

And… yeah, there’s nothing much else to say. Oh! I bought a triquetra pendant from Etsy. I should be arriving in roughly 3 to 5 days, so that’s something to look forward to, I guess.

Opulence. I has it.

So finally, my physics summer class is over. Aside from work, I haven’t got much else to do, so I can properly focus on writing now… hopefully… hahaha…

I’m moving over to my new apartment either tomorrow or the day after. I’ve got until the end of the month, but I don’t want to leave it off until the last day because I don’t like messing around with those kinds of deadlines. Like, the kind of deadlines that would land me in the street on my ass.

You know what the best treat is? Waffles with syrup, strawberry ice cream, and a lemonade-rum cocktail. It’s the motherfuckin’ best treat in the goddamn world. It’s pure opulence.

Anyway, I’m kind of crashing right now. I might post something up tomorrow…

Atheism, Religion, and Zombie Films

So anyway, today I went on Urban Dictionary because I was bored and also because I didn’t know what a reach-around was. Now I do. On an entirely separate note, I’ve decided to write a blog post on atheism.

I’m fairly certain that most of those who reject atheism are at least somewhat religious. Perhaps not fervently religious, but at least religious enough to defend their religion against naysayers.

Atheists do not replace religion with science. As a rule, science must change based on new data, new experiments, and new instruments. Religion, however, does not. Any particular religion is based in whatever holy text that particular religion uses. Though it is true that interpretations of this holy text may change over time, the text itself does not. Therefore, religion is fundamentally immutable. Because of religion does not change, it can provide solid explanations to the universe and a purpose to life. Atheism, on the other hand, only provides some half-answers and leaves many things unexplained, including the purpose to life.

Ultimately, religion and science provide possible explanations, none of which are perfect. Religion is imperfect because its basis cannot be verified. Science is imperfect because humanity’s knowledge of life, the universe, and everything is incomplete. However, atheists do not claim that science is complete or perfect. Those who believe in religion, who believe in a higher being, ultimately do. Atheists do not believe in science, they believe in the absence of religion.

On a separate note, I’m watching the 2004 remake of “Dawn of the Dead”. YAY!

The Usefulness of Life

I think I’ve come to the conclusion that life as it currently is, is ultimately worthless. I feel that I’ve come to accept near total nihilism in regard to the concept of life.

By life, I mean the state of consciousness and/or returnable consciousness that human beings are normally in.  For all intents and purposes, let’s call life the state of being able to make (or at least appear to make) decisions. Using this, let’s exclude everything before birth, in comatose state, etc.

I have often said that there is no inherent point or purpose to life, and that to go through life without succumbing to despair requires manufacturing a “point” or a “purpose”. I have accepted the fact that such would be no more than an illusion, a form of entertainment, a self-imposed Matrix. If I were to accept this, then life would be no more than an MMORPG where the purpose or the meaning of success of the game (read: Life) is not dictated by some overlord computer programmers, but rather by the player (read: You). Like all MMORPGs, success is dictated more by personal or societal expressions of what success is. I have come to feel that semantic argument dealing with such abstract concepts as success is more often concerned with which artificial and arbitrary definition is more “right” or “valid” than another definition. In the end, it’s a moot point. It’s like comparing the truthy-ness of two lies. My epistemological take on everything in the universe is that humans seek to create order where there is none. Order cannot be imposed, and any attempt to do so would merely create an illusion. It is not exactly Descartes; it’s more… it almost feels more empty than that. Whereas Descartes at least guaranteed the existence of one’s own mind and consciousness, I reject any attempt to validate or value anything created by such a mind.

But I digress. Slightly.